Well it happened again.. I was at the Walmart with my kids to get out of the house. My boy just wanted to buy some trading cards ND I knew this was coming, so I let him have the one. I dont know what I was thinking when I was determined to hold my last few dollars.

But I did, he had two packs in his hand and I made him put one back. I. would see it in his eyes being defeated and yet reluctantly accepting this or nothing. Mind you during this moment my daughter wanted some candy but since tap was not a pay option she would send funds over. I didn’t even consider just pay it John.. NOPE took her money and went to pay.

That’s how the story should have ended, but it did not. Funds were in Bitcoin. So I waited to see balance and evaluated how much to pull. This is an ordeal, take the fee and the amount is delivered to the balance. I’ll In my heart I still belive in the good Bitcoin stands for, just at this time I’m unable to stay committed as it caused turmoil and confusion.

So I had to do some deep soul searching and in the end I zapped my contracts, and removed the app. I changed my direct deposit take 100% to my savings. I figured as a tradeoff I will allow myself a couple dollars but the difference i won’t monitor it hourly or minute by minute.

There was a fascination that I believed in the 💓 a means that Bitcoin reacted to daily life, simply by leaving your app open on the Cashapp Bitcoin summary page and just day to day activities. and for the most part I was right. But it really was getting excessive, for me when iHeart would play i would like religiously watch the screen to see if the balance grew. Periodically my wife would walk by and notice the balance and exchange looks she knew I was holding a deep sigh and then move on.

Must understand when you are paycheck to paycheck every dollar counts towards bills, food then fun. Somewhere I crossed the line, and moving funds here and there became a dirty game of keep away. But was the Only player in this game of chess? Before I came to the conclusion of letting go, I did a deep dive. Have I made money or lost money? sigh. There are 3 ways to Mine. Rig, Virtual or Game. I never could afford the rig or the electricity would take to do so. So I did virtual. I had a few small contracts that were expiring that required me to watch about 30 ads in a day in exchange for what .15 or .30. Assuming you dont withdrawl it will grow. But there are groups that bet on your failure called shortsellers and they do the unthinkable and tether themselves to you like an digital anchor.

I saw this firsthand when my prior contract was swapping my earnings for themselves I was furious and went on a rampage to get even by the use of time. Another blindsided moment caught on by my family seeing a counter going up or down to influence direction or so I thought onlul6 to learn there is more going on behind the scenes. As I said I became so addicted to this idea that I put in almost all my time and was getting nothing. Sure I got a LIKE here and there but not at home. Was my efforts in vain was it all in my head? May never know how this played out, maybe it was a lesson dependency between family and God and not the use of one single idea.

For now, the shift has begun. I took down the contracts, Eliminates my anchor to the finance district. Until we cross our paths again, do better with your time know the difference between a hobbie or addiction. If its fun and not hurting anyone then great, but if you are looking over your shoulder and second guessing each move.. Well then you need to reevaluate as I did.